nine years

I have a theory that my life transitions into different phases roughly every nine years. However, this only holds up if I was born in year 2 of cycle 1. So, the universe is either bad at math, fetus time counts, or my theory isn't so true. However, since we are operating on my hypothesis that my life happens in nine-year chunks and this is MY blog, it is true.

Cycle Occurances

Year 1: About six months or so before the new cycle begins, "signs" of what is to come in the next nine years begin to appear. Possible important event.*

Year 4/5: Major life event

Year 8: Cycle feels like it is dragging and I feel a bit antsy in my skin.

Year 9: Things wind down and closure begins. Start planning for new cycle. Possible important event.*
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*There is usually an important event that occurs either in year 1 or year 9 to begin/conclude a cycle.
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Now, these cycles can be about anything and everything--the disruptions don't have to be major. Some could experience a cycle about love or education or moderation or philanthropy or whatever... But I find that the majority of the lessons I learn in these periods tend to be about the overarching theme.

Currently I am ending a cycle of death and loss. These last nine years have been NOT fun. I learned a lot about grief and the consequences of denial and supression of emotions. Needless to say, I am much more understanding now of people who have little in the way of possessions or family.

Thankfully this dreadful cycle is ending. I already have seen hints of what is to come: creativity and regeneration. That I am very thankful for. It means that this next cycle will be filled with fun and laughter and happinesses of every kind. My best friend just had a baby, I wrote a draft of a novel, and outside (in January on the Great Lakes) it is 65 degrees--could it get better? Of course!

I fully expect to have a wondrous 2008.

I will stop living with the dead. It's time to open my life up and begin to be a member of the living again. I really can do that.

Maybe I'll start by throwing a dinner party?